from the comfort of my invisibility
I watch the world move without me

you can plainly see that I am there,
yet to your eyes I don’t exist

things of beauty leave trails of kisses
I have no lips upon my steps

too much flesh to be seen
and too little height to be noticed

once, I crossed the threshold
where all eyes were fixed on me

offers of favors leapt from deep corners
one toothless smile wondered where I’d been all his life

the women burned with their seething eyes
aiming daggers at my head

I fell into too much shame for my accomplishments
and rejected what stood me out

falling back into this cellophane creature
writtled in guilt

too long have I held this
it is time to be seen again

remove my invisibility cloak
and happily face the world again!


the muse that killed my tender heart
made waste of me beneath his starlight

the words that sprang from his well
tore through me and shredded my soul

they made my songs useless,
pitifully meager meanings
that wilted in the ears of those who know much more
than my mind can conceive

he made me believe that good was dialed up to its extent,
that I was the lucky star that made all others swoon,
that one word from my mouth would attract beautiful lips
trembling with lust and dripping with sex,
eyes full of sparkling diamonds meant for me

what lies beheld in sinister words
I thought were the breath of me

dark shadows cast deep divides between,
my thoughts and my pen became two evils
that lied and lied
and spotlighted my stupidity

what a cruel deed to render my desires mute,
for now my lips are far from lust and dripping sex

I’m lucky to lick the boots of my abusive muse
caging what could be grand imaginings of this silly girl
who lost herself to comfort and fears

Walk on the Beach

we walk together in the sunshine
tasting the salty air

you manage to find many ways
to get into my underwear

I squeeze you very tightly
with my fingers and my toes -

as I touch your delicate gifts,
the foam tickles my nose -

I know exactly how to build your castle
and become your queen

but one is left to wonder
how you got so deep between?


a cup reaches my lips
in parched cracks
with out-reached hands
cool and sweet

she kisses me
to rouse my sagging spirit
her soft lips brush
my broken skin
glittered by golden sand

too weak to take her
in my arms
baked and sore
she blankets me
with her shadow

I want to give into pain
I’m done
too weak
too bleak
nothing left

she refuses
to let me go
she rewrites my tale

bringing me back to life



juice drips down
upon my tongue
as I squeeze the fruit
between my fingers,
drinking deeply
every drop
gliding on the skin -
honey nectar burns
hot in my mouth
while licking the flesh clean
and pressing it
to my lips -
every bite
a surge of pleasure
coursing through my body
as the fruit comes
to its sticky end -
I drain it dry
leaving nothing
but a dwindled seed


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My Heart

my heart leaps out
to do exactly as it will -
it twirls and dances -
it becomes a star

my heart feels no shame
it is made of all the pure joy
my brain suppresses

my heart beats to it’s tune -
an unhinged force -
pounding on its cage -
forever bound by doubt